My Singularity...

I never feel alone until
I'm out in some huge crowd
Watching strangers passing by
Holding hands
Smiling in some mysterious code that only two people in the world can understand
I saw a brotha rubbing the womb of his beloved today
The present and the future seemed to lay within his reach
And I couldn't help but feel the beauty of God's way of creating the world anew
I never feel alone until
Now
Until then
And I don't won't to remember what LOVE won't seem to let me forget
YOU and my singularity...
The fact that when I reach out my hand nobody is there to grab it
So this is what lonely feels like
Today the shit SUCKS...

Today...

Mr. Ambiguous

Somehow I figured that if I drove to the furthest ocean, to the farthest land, that if I didn't turn my headlights off till I only saw the world as endless blues and yellows...

That I could escape what it felt like to be embraced in your arms... To have you look at me so intensely that my core shook.

It was as if I knew you, before I knew you, before I knew you...

So I drove to the ocean. Hoping that with each mile I could dig deeper into myself... To find my "piece" of "peace"... My solace.

I watched the sun set on the Atlantic. Pride kept my lips sealed from telling God the truth. It's been months...

I miss you still...