My facebook page has been defunct for a year now. I got off because I was going through some major turmoil in my life and needed to escape from the one place I was so used to entertaining and being entertained by: The world. I needed some solitude, and a moment to be away; never thinking that my temporary hiatus would turn into an indefinite silence. I've let it go, and suprisingly I don't miss the social voyuerism aspect of it in the least. It's nice not to know what such and such is doing, reading line for line, surveying new photos with awe and cyber text; it actually gives you the oppurtunity to do the forgotten, call and hear a voice for hours, to engage in the act of physically placing your arms around someone in that forgotten embrace none as a hug... I've come to the realization that I was so caught up in the cyber matrix, that I forgot that life wasn't just about "lol's", "gtfoh's", and "im's". It was time to embrace life again, hold on wide-eyed to long authentic discussions and explorations into the heart. Im at a place in my existence where I don't want the world to know my name, see my face, I have no need to have people ponder over me anymore, my narcissitic days are over... And boy did I have some...
I just want those who need to know me, to know my heart, understanding that I am human, and thus inextricably flawed, but dammit I'm trying my best... To be better, to be more authentic, to correct the worst in me. So in the next couple of posts, I may share some of my old writings off of FB, the ones that express some of the thoughts I discuss in this blog... The ones which still have meaning and hold substance in my now little, isolated, miniscule world; My small piece of sanity and sanctity called Life...
Akua
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